WHEN LIFE FEELS OUT OF CONTROL

What do you do when you feel like you’ve lost control of your life?

Sometimes life feels like jumbled wires
Sometimes life feels like jumbled wires

Everybody feels that way at one point or another, and most of us will feel that way periodically throughout our lifetime.  The feeling is so nebulous that it is almost impossible to define, but you know it when it happens.  Things that once seemed certain no longer seem as certain, relationships that were rock solid are suddenly muddy or fragile, things that used to make sense don’t any more, and we feel helpless to do anything about it.  Please note, I am not talking about clinical depression, mood disorders, or other medically treatable mental illnesses.  I am referring to the normal feelings we all have sometimes–that feeling that things are spiraling out of our grasp.

Although there is no magical elixir, my experiences have taught me there are some things to help us get through the muddle, and I offer them here as suggestions.

1.  It is important that when we feel this type of identity crisis or confusion, that we do not make big decisions.  Don’t quit your job because it feels hopeless, or divorce your spouse because you think you don’t love her/him anymore, or move just because you think a change of venue will help.  These big decisions might feel right for a little while, but they are long term solutions for short term problems.  Its a bit like going to Costco when all you really need is just one new toothbrush.

2.  Getting back to your roots, whatever your roots may be, is often helpful.  Visit your family, make a phone call to a loved one, or reread a familiar book.  For me, my roots are my wife and two daughters.  Mrs. Greenbean and the sprouts are such an important part of me that spending time with them often puts me back in balance.

3.  Sometimes that out-of-control feeling we have is a spiritual warning sign.  That is why one way to help is by engaging in spiritual activities.  For me, as a Christ-follower, this means reading the scriptures–long passages of scripture like the Psalms or all the gospels and prayer.  Although I don’t use one, many people are helped by a prayer journal.  God made us as spiritual beings as well as physical, and a feeling of lack of control can be an indicator that our spirit is out of whack.

4.  It might be that our feelings of anxiety or confusion are because we’re not thriving, but we can’t see how to fix it.  This is when it is often helpful to talk to someone smarter, more mature (not necessarily older, just more mature) and trustworthy.  Although talking to your spouse or a healthcare professional like a counselor might help, that is not what who I’m talking about here.  I mean a mentor, a guide, someone you look up to.

5.  Focus sometimes is the solution.  Earlier this year I was feeling mildly out-of-place in my writing schedule.  There were four different things that I was working on all at once.  The result was I felt lost and behind schedule in all four of them.  What I needed to do was focus on one with my primary energy, and let the others wait their turn.  This turned out to be a tremendously helpful decision.

6.  But sometimes, the solution is not to focus, but to unfocus.  Instead of buckling down on one project, what we need is some distance.  Withdrawing for a little while, like a weekend, or a week, will often re-energize the soul.  I know this is hard to do, especially if you have young children and/or work full-time but it might be worth it in the long term to take some leave, find a friend to watch the kids, and get away to a cabin, a tent, or a  luxury resort for four or five days.  Time alone can give us insight into who we are, which then gives us inner strength to carry on with the things that matter.

I am certain there are other things that can help us in these times when life is flapping around us like newspaper in a tornado, but these are some strategies I have found helpful.

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THE RABSHAKEH

Isaiah 36 sneaks up on you in a way few Bible stories do.  The reason for this is that Isaiah’s arrangement lull’s you for a long period of text leading up to it.  Most of the material leading up to it, from Isaiah 9 on really, is prophetic oracle after prophetic oracle describing the coming problems for Jerusalem, judgment on the surround nations and Egypt.  Don’t forget Egypt.  And the Assyrians.  Don’t forget them either.  They will all get their due, says the Lord.  Isaiah 35 is a majestic piece that literally sparkles with poetic greatness.

Then comes 36.  Gone are the oracles.  Gone are the woes and judgments.  Now we get straight prose, narrative kicks in and the key actor is this guy the Bible calls the Rabshakeh.  Never mind that Rabshakeh is one of the most enjoyable words in the whole world to say.  It reminds me of “Mufasa” in The Lion King.  Just saying Rabshakeh makes me tremble.  I can only imagine what he looked like with a long curly Assyrian beard and pointed helmets and probably battle armor and spears and, for reasons beyond the biblical text that seep out of my imagination, I see him with blood smeared on his face and tunic and perhaps a necklace of thumbs, the thumbs of conquered kings hanging around his neck.

Rabshakeh
needs a thumb necklace, and spikes coming out of his head

The Rabshakeh was the highest ranking military officer under the Assyrian king Sennacherib.  He was the one commanding the army that besieged Jerusalem, King Hezekiah, and Isaiah. The gist of his message is, “No one can save you from me.  It is not even a fair fight.  Yahweh himself told me to come up against you and now he will not save you.  Do not trust Hezekiah.  Surrender.”

You really should read Isaiah 36:4-20 to get the breadth of his amazing speech, but one sample verse will do for us here.  Consider Isaiah 36:10:

Is it without the Lord (Yahweh) that I have come up against this land to destroy it?  The Lord (Yahweh) said to me, Go up against this land and destroy it.

That is a breathtaking statement that should lead us to make at least three observations about our lives.

1.  Not everyone who says they speak for the Lord really does.  People who claim to speak for the Lord usually have an (evil) agenda all their own.

2.  Sometimes people will twist the spiritual facts.  The Rabshakeh pointed to Hezekiah’s positive work of destroying the altars and high places as a negative testimony against him.  Hezekiah’s good dead was used against him by his enemies.

3.  The Rabshakeh reminds us that those who seek to divide us are really trying to conqueror us.  He tried to turn the people against Hezekiah and against orthodoxy.  We should be suspicious of all who use such tactics.

Spend some time today and read all of Isaiah 36 and then ask the Lord to show you who might be playing the Rabshakeh in your life.

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